Upset

The cellphone my mom ordered has been here for 5 days and it's looking like nobody's going to activate it. My mom even said she might return it because it looked like it had a contract and she doesn't want that, when we ordered one without. I keep trying to get her to activate it so I can go job searching online but she says she wants to relax, then got mad at my dad when he tried to help. I tried to do it myself but got confused and angry.

...I don't think I'm ever getting a job. She doesn't care. Everyone refuses to drive me to the RMV to take my permit test and keep telling me they have lives. I tell my mom I want a life too and she doesn't listen. and yes, I have applied to places and none of them respond back.

I'm not even going to keep my hopes up for college anymore because my mom isn't calling anybody or filling out anything for me and I don't know what they want me to do, they might as well just reject me.
 
I can't take it anymore, all I feel is emptiness whenever I'm awake and then I have nightmares when I go to sleep. I don't know why they had a kid if they're not going to help. I'm just their pet to them, I can't have any responsibilities, I'm never getting out of here. I want to stop bothering them but they don't understand that I won't need them if I get a job..  

My neurologist called earlier and my mom missed it. She wants to help me and my mom keeps pushing away people who want to help.